Hey There Lonely Girl

Hey there lonely girl...

I haven't written as much as I would like for several reasons. First I have lots of school work (a test and paper due tomorrow), and in my apartment I don't have wireless Internet. I'm so accustomed to sitting in my bed typing that its hard for me to do it at a desk. I would like to get a new desk for my apartment. I really don't need it but I want it. I need my apartment to feel like my own and I think the way to do that is with personal touches.

I call this entry hey there lonely girl because my Saturday nights lately have been following a certain theme. At home (in my mother's house), with some DVD's from Netflix and some kind of fast food.

Dana told me she signed up for meetup.com and joined a few groups and I went online and took a look. I started to join a few groups but then I thought what is the point. I am a member of the greatest sorority in the world (I love my Z PHI!) and I have access to fundraisers and club events every weekend if I so chose. If I have all of this why do I stay home?

I am still sad
I still miss him
I miss the idea of him

When I say I miss the idea of him I mean being in a relationship. Before I met him I could only think of myself with the other guy. But then I met him and the other one just became someone I was with when I was 21.

I loved being in his house and it just being us. I miss going to the movies and going out to dinner. I miss those walks on the promenade. I would love to go back to those places again but is it right since I went there with him.

I finally have what I want. I have my own place. I can go and go as I please. I can walk around my apartment naked. When I step on cold tile I don't have anyone telling me to put on slippers.

I guess I just need to give it some time. Time to adjust and really figure out what I want.

A Change is Going to Come

Sam Cooke A Change is Gonna Come

I was born by the river

In a little tent

And just like the river I've been running ever since

It's been a long, long time coming But I know a change gonna come

Oh, yes it is It's been too hard living

But I'm afraid to die

I don't know what's up there beyond the sky

It's been a long, long time coming

But I know a change gonna come

Oh yes it will Then I go to my brother I say brother help me please

But he winds up knocking me Back down on my knees

There's been times that I thought I wouldn't last for long

But now I think I'm able to carry on

It's been a long, long time coming

But I know a change is gonna come

Oh, yes it will

Wow

Rosa sat so Martin could walk

Martin walked so Barack could run

Barack is running so our children can fly!!!!!

A Dream Fullfilled....

You Are Missed

Tim Russert May 7, 1950 - June 13, 2008

Peter Jennings July 29, 1939 - August 7, 2005

You both have been there for every election I can remember even if that number is small. We need to respect you both and recognize the contributions that you made while you were here. I know you are in a special place with my father, Barack's grandmother and mother. If you were both here you would celebrate the change.

Never would have made it

He won Ohio

Even Jack would have checked in by now

I am not posting in real time for now

I am going to study because that is what I need to do in order to graduate and do well

4:59 pm

I had something here but dont know what happened

2:40 pm

Yahoo poll has Obama up!!!

1:58 pm

It's not critical time now. Critcal time will come when I am in class, studying or driving home but I still write. Yahoo has McCain up 0.2% and Obama down 0.1%. He is still ahead but I would be lying if I said I wasn't concerned.

Foxnews is reporting in Philly that two Black Panthers are blocking and intimidating voters. The thing that is typical of them is when you click on the link attached to the headline there is no mention of the black panthers. I would love to know what they were doing to make the voters feel intimidated. Where they dressed in all black or were they just guilty of the crime of being black.

CNN.com has a map of poll closings by state. I won't hear anything until at least 7pm. So I continue to wait.

12:38 PM

Still nothing. What would Jack Bauer do with idle time? He would take action because he is a man of action? I guess its back to business as usual.

11:58 am

Blasted spyware virus. Someone put a virus on my computer. I wonder if it was the GOP. Someone needs to address this problem now. Even though I missed my 11:00 am update I will still prevail and write about this day.

Now time to check the news.

CNN.com
Nothing

Yahoo.com
Nothing

Foxnews.com
Nothing

I did notice one thing. They had pictures of McCain casting his vote on the homepage and not Obama.

10:18 am

The boss caught me morning but I diverted attention away from the fact that I was chilling at the front counter to the election. Jack would be proud that I did not use violence to control a situation.

My webcam is up but I can only see a portion of the office. Wait I hear him coming...

I will have to watch my time. Haven't looked at the progress of the election yet.

So now we wait.

9:29 am

The boss isn't here yet or is he...?

We all know how Jack Bauer handles people in positions of authority how should I? Should I take control of the situation like Jack or should I upload a mysterious untraceable computer virus like Chole? I need an ally someone to watch for when he walks past my cubicle. Whom should I ask to be my Tony today.

My task at hand is to document my day. Today is history and I must write about it in real time.

7:14 am

I think I made myself late looking for this clip and I'm still not satisfied with it. Jack would not approve. He would have yelled at me for using precious CTU time and not getting Chole on the job.

7:00 am

This will be the longest day of my life

Quiet Before the Storm

I don't know what to say. I just remain hopeful for so many reasons. I hope the country will make the correct choice tomorrow and we can move forward. How do I visit the Midwest knowing that part of the country feels that I am a second class citizen. November 4, 2008 history will be made. I am curious to know where I will end up in this crazy plan God has for us. I just have the faith that he will get us through.

Marvin Sapp - Never Could Have Made It

Never would have made it, never could have made it, without you

I would have lost it all, but now I see how you were there for me And I can say Never would have made it, Never could have made it, Without you

I would have lost it all, But I now how I see how you were there for me

and I can say I'm stronger, I'm wiser, I'm better, much better,

When I look back over all you brought me thru

I can see that you were the one that I held on to

And I never

Never would have made it

Oh I never could have made it

Never could have made it without you

Oh I would have lost it all, oh but now I see how you were there for me

I never

Never would have made it

No, I never

Never could have made it without you

I would have lost my mind a long time ago, if it had not been for you

I am stronger

I am stronger, I am wiser

I am wiser ,Now I am better

I am better So much better

I am better I made it thru my storm and my test because you were there to carry me thru my mess

I am strongerI am stronger

I am wiser I am wiser

I am better I am better

Anybody better

I am better I can stand here and tell you, I made it. Anybody out there that you made it I am stronger I am stronger

I am wiser I am wiser

I am better I am better Much better

I am better I made it, I made it, I made it, I made it, I made it, I made it, I made it, I made it

And I never would have made it

Never would have made it

Never could have made it

Never could have made it without you

I would have lost my mind, I would have gave up, but you were right there, you were right there I never

Never would have made it

Oh I never

I never could have made it without you.

Someone need to testify next to them and tell them

I am stronger, I am wiser, I am better, much better.

When I look back over what he brought me thru.

I realize that I made it because I had you to hold on to, now I am stronger, now I am wiser, I am better, so much better.

I made it.

Is there anybody in this house other than me that can declare that you made it.

Tell your neighbor, never would have made it.

Never would have made it.

Never could have made it.

Never could have made it without you.

Never would have made it.

Never would have made it.

Never could have made it.

Never could have made it without you

....

I usually write as I watch whether it was the debate or the convention.

8 minutes in I am speechless...

I will say one thing so I guess I am not speechless

Barack Obama I hope you are not writing checks your ass can't cash. I hope the world will allow the man to do his job and partisanship and racism will not deter him from that.

Ok maybe it is impossible for me to be speechless. For the people who say Barack isn't clear on what he is going to do.

I say Tim Kaine President 2012. Have you ever heard this man? You need to.

I noticed on youtube there are many people that are well versed in Marx and socialism that they neglected to pick up a US history text book. This country will never be communist. Any program, plan or bill he plans to introduce needs the approval of the House and the Senate. If it does you don't blame the President you blame your local Congressman.

What thee FUCK!#@^

McCain Campaign Volunteer Admits Alleged Attack Was a Hoax
A woman who lied about being attacked because of the McCain bumper sticker on her car will face charges of filing a false report.

PITTSBURGH -- A 20-year-old volunteer for John McCain's campaign has admitted that she lied when she said she was attacked by a robber who carved a "B" into her cheek when he saw a McCain bumper sticker on her car, Pittsburgh police said Friday.

Ashley Todd, 20, of College Station, Texas, will be charged with filing a false report, a misdemeanor, police said.

"She told lie after lie, and the situation compounded to where we are right now," Lt. Kevin Kraus, head of major crimes for the Pittsburgh police, said Friday.

Todd had told police that on Wednesday night at 9 o'clock ET, a 6-foot-4 black male in dark jeans and a black tank top held her up at an ATM machine in Bloomfield, Pa. Todd said the robber put a knife to her neck and demanded money. She said she gave him $60, according to the police report.

Todd, who is white, said the robber then noticed the McCain bumper sticker on her car, punched her in the back of her head, knocked her down, and continued to punch and kick her while threatening to teach her a lesson.

"You are going to be a Barack supporter," she said the robber told her before he sat on her chest, pinned her hands down with his knees and scratched the letter "B" on the right side of her face, using what she believed to be a very dull knife. The robber then fled, Todd said in the police report.

On Friday, officials said they had found several "inconsistencies" in Todd's statements. She was brought back to police headquarters, where she finally confessed that she had made the entire story up.

"After a while, she just simply stated that she wanted to tell the truth," said Maurita Bryant, assistant chief for investigations.

Todd confessed to police that she was driving alone, looked in the mirror, saw her black eye and the "B" on her face, and didn't know how they got there. She assumed she could have done it herself, she said, and then she made up the story about the attacker.

"She saw the 'B' on her face, and she immediately thought about Barack," Bryant said.

Kraus said the 'B' was what first led him to suspect Todd's story. He said he was struck by how neatly the letter was etched on her face.

Police suspect Todd's wounds were self-inflicted. She remained at police headquarters on Friday afternoon, because police "have concern for her well-being," Kraus said. He said officials are trying to determine whether she needs psychiatric evaluation.

"She hasn't really shown any obvious remorse," Kraus said. "She's certainly surprised that it snowballed to where it is today."

"It's been a huge waste of time and man hours," said Bryant, adding that police had been working on the story since it broke Thursday.

Police said Todd did not have a lawyer, and that her none of her family were in Pittsburgh.

Earlier in the day, Pittsburgh police spokeswoman Diane Richard would not say whether police doubted Todd's story, but bank surveillance footage did not show Todd at the Citizens Bank ATM where she claimed the assault took place.

Richard told FOX News that Todd had been staying with a male friend who lives down the street from the ATM.

A woman named Liz who answered the door at the residence where Todd arrived after her purported attack told FOXNews.com that her roommate is friends with Todd, and he told Liz not to discuss any details about the incident. A Ford Taurus with a Texas license plate and a McCain-Palin sticker was parked outside.

Richard said Todd later added to her tale, saying she was groped by the robber and lost consciousness during the assault. Neither of those details was in the original report.

Richard said that after a second interview, Todd was not as definitive about the assault or the motives behind it, nor could she say for certain whether the robber took $60 from her, as she initially reported and still maintained was missing.

Todd took a polygraph test late Thursday or early Friday after police heard the inconsistencies, Richard said.

'There were major changes in her story" before and after the polygraph test, Richard said. As for the wound on her cheek, "it's very shallow, it's more of a scratch."

Before Todd's admission, Richard had said the police department was taking the report "very seriously" and considered Todd a "victim" while the investigation was ongoing.

The area at Liberty Avenue and Pearl Street where Todd had said the attack took place is heavily traveled in the daytime, full of traffic, pedestrians, restaurants and stores. On Friday, Pittsburgh detectives canvassed the area looking for witnesses.

Doug Graham, a neighbor of the residence where Todd's friend lives, told FOXNews.com it's unlikely an assault at the bank would go unnoticed.

"There ain't no way nobody saw that," said Graham, whose home -- where he has lived for a decade -- sports a Barack Obama sign. "It's always hopping up there. Something fishy, I knew the first second I saw [her story]. Something fishy."

Ethan Eilon, executive director of the College Republicans National Committee, told FOX News that Todd was volunteering as a field representative through his organization and that she had taken a year off from her studies at Blinn College to work on the campaign.

Todd received a call from the Republican presidential nominee on Thursday night. Barack Obama's local campaign team also issued well-wishes and said it hoped her assailant would be caught and brought to justice.

FOX News' Judson Berger and Carl Cameron and The Associated Press contributed to this report.

Someone has figured out how Palin does it

One day, Lawanda (my soror and just ride or die chick) decided to google her name. She came across this blog because he had a story about another LP that was a stripper and got her self in trouble. This was two years ago and since then I've been following his blog. Thank you Dark Damian for posting this pic