2000
I will never forget the New Year's going into the new century/millennium. My friends Dana and Elizabeth were there as well as Dana's friend Deseree. Eric's usually crew came through as well in addition to my cousin Perryn. We must of thrown confetti in every part of the house (my parents were not at home). I want to say that was also the night we lost Sean but found him. This was also the year I turned 21. I spent my 21st birthday at first with the ladies of okayplayer at our first and only sisterhood day and then Elizabeth and I went to a bar on the upper east side. This was also the year I lost my virginity.
2001
The New Year's Eve going into this year I was 21 but no where to go because I was recovering from surgery. I had my first real job in the group home. First time I had health insurance which would prove useful that year. I started having sex and was able to get my own birth control without alarming the parental units. That year I was the thinnest I had been in a while. This year we were a changed nation because of the terrorist attacks on the World Trade Center. Life as we knew it would never be the same. I went on my first cruise with him that year too.
2002
Many things happened this year but only a few worth mentioning. This was the year I got my first 9-5 office job. This is the year my father finally got the kidney transplant he had needed for the last 10 years and of course that was the same week I lost my granny.
2003
January of this year Elizabeth and I embarked on our girls trip. I really thought it would have been the first of many but it was a vacation to never forget. This is the year I also found out on my birthday that my father had prostate cancer. In 2003, I also said goodbye to my Auntie Len. I made the big move back from Albany to Long Island and began my employment as a state worker for Stony Brook University.
2004
Treatment for Dad's cancer worked for a while and this also marked 40 years of marriage for my parents. We celebrated by taking that cruise my father always wanted to do and had the time of our life. That August, he started to get worse. October Dad's cancer went from bad to awful and New Year's Eve I found out my Dad would be dead in 3 months. I knew this in the back of my mind and I tried to spend all of my waking time with my father. Oh yeah I also started college Fall 2004.
2005
It was hard to stay positive this year knowing my father was going to die. My father would never get that house in Florida he wanted to retire in and travel during the hurricane season. My father would never walk me down the aisle or see my children. What I do remember from that time before he died was the gift I felt the Lord gave me. I wanted to take some time off so put in for my Spring break. Ironically that week my car would be repossessed and I would have no mode of transportation. I would spend a lot of time with my father and for some strange reason he was feeling good. He actually got up and made me breakfast something he wasn't able to do in a while. I was feeling positive up until that Easter morning. I saw my father sit in his chair and it was almost as if he was already gone. We went to my Uncle Lynn's house for dinner and came home where my father was up all night. I had to go back to work that day so I got dressed and said bye to my Dad and I would see him when he got home. My mom ended up taking him to the hospital where I spoke to him for the final time when he said he was OK. Later that night about 10:00 my Mom called from the hospital to tell me and my brother come to the city your father will probably not make it through the night. So I called my sister, my Uncle Lynn and my cousin Kizzy. Then put my clothes on to go say goodbye to my father. I saw my Dad in the hospital bed before the put him on the life support machine. We had a priest come in and do his last rites. I held my father's hand and he squeezed it back. I know my father died that day but we took vigil in the hospital for the rest of the week waiting for family to arrive to say goodbye. Everyday I went there and talked to my Daddy like he was still alive and that a miracle would happen and he would come back to me. He never did. That Friday we disconnected the machine and watched the heart monitor go down as the life the machine was providing left his body. Two weeks later we would say goodbye to my cousin Arlene's husband Lenny. Two months later we would say goodbye to my grandfather and two months after that I lost my godfather. What else can I say about this year but it has changed me forever.
2006
I decided to cope with my loss was to not have time to deal with it. I went back into my studies and one day walking on campus saw the flyer with almost an auroa surrounding it. Zeta Phi Beta Sorority, Incorporated informational April 2, 2006. This year I would embark on a journey that I always felt destined to take. I began my journey April 2 and started on a new path December 2, 2006. I learned many things that year. Some things I'm not going to put on the blog. Some things will stay with Fall 06
2007
I had many expectations for this year and it was a blur. I threw myself in school work and sorority and was maintaining for a little while. Who would know that this would be the gateway to about 60 pound weight gain. Oh yeah I left the hell I was in for a new one. Made the job switch from East to West campus.
2008
Much of 2007 but with more personal strife and weight gain. One thing that did change was deciding to make some changes. In November, 2008 I moved out of my mother's house and into my own studio apartment. Oh my Academic career was in the toilet.
2009
DIRTY THIRTY - was this year perfect nope but I made the best of it. I had another car accident which forced me to my chiropractor who introduced me to the diet that would actually work for me. My boss introduced me to the therapist who is actually helping me and I traveled. This year I saw Hawaii, Dominican Republic and Toronto. The best part was not only my trips. The best part was snorkeling in Kona, zip lining in Kauai and finally doing everything I had been scared to do for so long.
There is more to the last 10 years that I care to write about. I may edit at a later time but for now I have to get myself ready for a New Year's Eve house party. Which I hope will be the best way for me to start off my year.
There is more to the last 10 years that I care to write about. I may edit at a later time but for now I have to get myself ready for a New Year's Eve house party. Which I hope will be the best way for me to start off my year.
